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Pardon the Delay

OK, so two years is a pretty long coffee break. Especially when you’re a tea drinker.

What can I say? Working part time, raising a daughter, being a wife, having a home, trying to exercise, learn Mandarin, volunteer at my kid’s school, keep two pets alive and have a moment now and then to read a non-first-grade-level book–it’s a lot. This seemed like the lowest priority, and it just fell by the wayside. Fell and broke both legs. Did I mention the concussion?

But I had an awakening recently. It’s not working for me. Not writing–or having any creative output at all–is making me brittle. I’ve got to get back to it. For me. No one else much cares, but a life with all work and no words feels hopelessly incomplete. So I am hobbling back to Thumbstumbler, casts on both legs–figuratively speaking, people!–and a little pink in the cheeks. I suppose I’ve exposed myself as a dilettante.

Or a human. You choose.

Either way, not writing is not an option anymore. Something in me cracked when, the other day, I had to give someone a link to this blog. I hadn’t looked at it in over a year, but just logging in and seeing “No Towel for Owl” all hung out to dry like that, the last post in a series that wasn’t meant to stop, well, it made me melancholy. And irritated. It really doesn’t take much time to do this writing thing. Just a little commitment, some nimble scheduling, maybe one fewer “Grace and Frankie” episode. Still, I’ve been known to be a quitter in matters of personal endeavor, and that lone suspended owl reminded me how much I enjoyed doing this and how much I’d lost by letting it go.

Even then I worried. “There’s just no time. Where will I fit it back in?”

Then today I was at the Natural History museum with MJ–she’s six now–and I had a moment of clarity. I’d just snapped a picture of her, standing before her beloved Bird Gallery, crooning over her favorite taxidermied fowl (the Golden Eagle, in case you’re wondering), and I thought of that dangling, well-loved owl. And all the things that had come before.

And the things that are yet to come.

And I knew I had to find time.

So here I am. Because I do work part-time, and clean my house, and raise my kid, and love my husband, and read books, and jog, and volunteer, and try to be a friend, and watch too much TV, and grocery shop, and meditate. And it’s all a lot, and, as a result, I do none of it as well as I’d like.

But if I’m not writing about it I’m giving up the one thing that can make all of that OK.

And that would be for the birds, indeed.





Dancing With Cats

Mike, Myra-Jean, and I went to the Atwater Farmer’s Market this morning for our habitual pupusa run. It was a beautiful day, and MJ was in fine spirits, wearing a particularly fetching, even stylish outfit — chosen all by herself — a black and white houndstooth jacket, wide legged black pants, and a pink and green hand-knit sunhat. A well-dressed kid on the east side of L.A. is about as notable as a screenwriter in Santa Monica, but MJ is an interesting case, as her mother — I — could not be less fashion-conscious. As in, I will be buried in jeans and a tee shirt. So in this case, our little apple — sartorially speaking — has fallen so far from the tree as to be, well, an orange. Lucky for her, and fun for us.

At the market she got her face painted like a blue cat, and the look was complete.

After eating, we watched the tail end of a dance performance by a group of Native Americans — I have no idea what tribe. They drummed, shouted, waved rattley (is that an adjective?) instruments, and danced steps of great complexity — one of them in bare feet — right there on Glendale Boulevard. It looked like fun, and a real workout, to boot. (It occurred to me — shallow cretin that I am, that they should offer an exercise class based on this. I would sign up. If I exercised, ever. Which I don’t. Unless you count walking up my front steps. Which, depending on the number of grocery bags I’m carrying, I do.)

I digress. Back to the drummers. MJ loved them, and danced along for quite some time, hat pushed back, houndstooth glinting in the sun, feline features deeply concentrated on keeping the beat. Which she didn’t. Still, it was adorable. Then the dancing stopped, and the troupe’s leader, a bespectacled, bookish-looking fellow wearing the closest thing to a loincloth I’ve seen outside of the Natural History Museum, made a speech. It was about farmer’s markets, and farmers, how they are saving the earth, and how we must all “love our Mother.” When he said that last bit he reached down and touched the “earth.” Except the earth was the sidewalk of Glendale Boulevard. He did this a number of times. I found it depressing. I almost wished he’d brought a little pile of dirt with him, as touching the sidewalk was only reminding all of us of how far from any kind of real “earth” we were. It made me want to go home and get back to the terraces, where I may not have earth per se, but I can at least reach down and touch clay. And paperwhite corpses. And gypsum, which might contain earth-like elements, or at least feels earthy if you close your eyes.

So that’s what I did. Not close my eyes; we went home. Once there, Mike, Myra-Jean, and I changed our shoes and went out to the yard, where we worked for some time in sunlit, satisfied silence. Mike swept, and MJ and I went after the small rose bush next to the Mother-Of-All-Rosebushes in the second terrace. We dug and dug and dug, I in my shirt sleeves, MJ still — at her own insistence — in the ensemble she’d worn earlier, including the cat face. Every once in a while a car would pass and I could feel peoples’ eyes on us. It’s pretty unusual to see white people doing their own gardening in L.A. It’s even rarer to see an entire family doing it together. And when one of them is a two-year-old dressed like Anna Wintour with a blue cat face, well, you just have to slow down and peer…

An hour later, the small rose bush is almost dug up. The yard is swept. The yard waste bin is full. MJ has shed her clothes (and had her “face” wiped off) and gone to bed. She is tired from her morning’s exertions. I hope she will dream of drums, dancing, pupusas, and lots and lots of earth. Or clay. Or even, I suppose, the sidewalk on Glendale Boulevard, which is not Mother Earth but is not NOT her, either.

Mike and I are quiet in the house. Enough has been done for one day.

We’re a funny little tribe, but we’re happy.